Sometimes I have to be a brat!
I am a bit annoyed with myself. I am procrastinating on my homework and I am procrastinating on my getting my other work done too. I am wanting to have some free time to sit in the sunshine and read a book with no cares. So I tried to do this while doing my homework only to have my rebellious nature flare up a bit and throw a little tantrum. No… I don’t want to do something that I am supposed to be doing, I want to read a different book that has nothing to do with yoga! Well it actually does… but it is not required reading. Yes my old habits of homework rebellion are rearing their head. I am like a little high school brat right now. I wanna do what I wanna do when I wanna do it… so there! So this little tantrum does nothing to relieve my stress and actually perpetuates it. And I see this pattern in me in other areas as well…yes I am very flexible in my thinking in many ways until I decide NOT to be and then I am the “It’s my way or the highway” type of person that drives me crazy in others. I needed to see this in myself right now and so this little obstacle of my high school bratty behavior has served its purpose and now I can get to work and enjoy it. I hope it is that easy.
